Singleness

Discontentment with singleness is a hard thing to deal with. I know, because I struggle with it. What annoys me about myself is that even though I'm still really young (18), this dissatisfaction is a prominent thought in my mind. I look at (beautiful, wonderful) girls who are 21, 23, even 30, who strongly desire husbands but don't have one, and despise myself for being so impatient and frivolous. How bad will it be, I ask myself, when you're still feeling the same way 5 years from now? What if God never gives you a husband? Will you just be depressed for the rest of your life? I desire to get to a point where I can think about having a significant other without a feeling of desperation, but can still say, "that sounds good right about now!" I know it's incredibly unrealistic for me to lose a desire for marriage completely - and I do believe this is a good desire, until it becomes idolization - although the power of God over the human mind is, of course, NOT limited. This is problematic for me because I'm an all-or-nothing kind of girl. Typically, I'm either uninterested or obsessed. Lately, God has been so gracious to me, and turned my boy obsession and longing into a softer, less lingering desire. But the discontentment is still there.

Then comes the tugging at my heart, and I remember that of course I'm still struggling, because I haven't turned to Scripture and prayer to solve this problem. So to combat these emotions, I did a little Word search and came up with these verses (and quotes from other Christians). I hope this helps anyone who feels the way I do.


Matthew 6:33: "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:6-7)

"Sometimes God lets you hit rock bottom so that you discover *He* is the Rock at the bottom." - Tony Evans

"The only one who can satisfy the human heart is the one who made it." (I don't know who said this)

Convicting!!

Amen!

If you're a woman who desires to get married, but doesn't have a significant other, and you're older than 18 and you think it's ridiculous that I'm struggling with discontentment at my age, I'm truly sorry. You're probably right. But, it's how I feel, and when I feel, I think, and when I think, I write, and when I write, I blog.