Raindrops on Roses and Whiskers on Kittens

Tim Burton + Alice in Wonderland + Johnny Depp = Perfection.

Tiramisu, or Red Velvet Cake, or anything chocolate.

Lord of the Rings, Ted Nasmith's art, and J.R.R. Tolkien in general.

Shopping, particularly here, or at VS's Pink and PacSun.


Chris Tomlin, along with Sovereign Grace and Jeremy Camp, and old hymns like this.

Castles, and England, and Warwick Castle in England which I can proudly say I've been to.

xoxo Em

A lot on my mind...

See that picture? How distorted and twisted I look? Yep, that's about how I feel right now. There's a lot on my mind:

• There's an enormous lack of disk space on my computer. I went to Winter Camp with (who else?) my youth group this weekend. It was an amazing weekend, to say the least. As always, extremely exhausting, physically, emotionally, mentally and spiritually, too. The disk space is making it so that I cannot upload ANY of the photos I took yet. It's frusturating, to say the least.
• I'm waiting impatiently for CTE/FVTC to announce their next show. This past fall, they did "Children of Eden", a show that distorts and changes the bible, so because of personal convictions my parents wouldn't let me do it (I would not have wanted to anyway). Now, it's been almost a year since I've been on stage and I'm DESPERATE to get back on there again. DESPERATE, I tell you!
• Money..money..money. Not to get too personal, but basically, my family was suffering BEFORE the economy did what it did. It's been very very tough for all of us.
• School. I'm still at home, and tying into the previous bullet point, Mom has been taking any subbing jobs (she has a degree in Teaching) she possibly can lately, so I'm home alone. It's alright for the most part, until we get to Math. I'm AWFUL at it, and it's getting HARD and I can no longer rely on only my videos. We're not sure what the plan is for Junior year since obviously homeschooling has had its run. We're thinking public school *shudder* or possibly classes at co-ops or colleges. Big decisions...big impact. It's tough.
  

• Little things. My room is messy, there are dust bunnies underneath the furniture and I'm too sore from camp (more on that later...) to deal with it. I'm a neat freak and this stresses me out. Then there's my own reputation. I learned that one guy in my youth group said I was annoying, and not only does it hurt, it worries me. What did I do to make him say that?

Now. I'm listening to Mighty to Save and thinking about the root of these worries. Pride - wanting to do your best (in school, among your social groups) is natural, but I need to think about where my heart REALLY is. I've made this choice to be a Christian and glorify God...pride doesn't fit in that anywhere.

So this stress is really helping me rely on Him more and more - thus, it's becoming more of a blessing than a trial. I love it - I love how it works out like that.

Prayer, too, is a big thing. That's a weak spot in my spiritual life - I forget, my mind wanders, I don't do it as often as I should. Trevor - our speaker at camp - talked about this. It's a big deal, and I'm glad he did, because it opened my eyes to that fact.

And I need to realize that God has it ALL under control. Anxiety, stress...it can lead to many different sins. I just need to trust in Him and realize that I'm not alone in any of this.

Well this post meandered this way and that way...I guess I'd better get off my duff and do somthing, right? I'm glad I got it out, though. I feel a lot better, having it written down somewhere.

Later,
Em